Well those boots might have been, but stilettos were not! They were made for hurting like a biatch and making your legs look sexy.

So today I went up and met up with my drag mother Lucciana Morgan, my 2 drag sisters Natalie and Arielle (sp?) Morgan, Randy, and Kyky in Denton. We hung out as everyone got ready for tonights drag show. Natalie and I weren't performing but would be going around collecting tips.

So Lucciana did my make up and made me look fieeeerce. The only thing I didn't particularly like was just due to preference. I'm not a fan of the darker lip liner with lighter gloss. Otherwise it was greaaat (theres pics on facebook/myspace). I can't wait to learn all about it myself and she said to just talk to her about it and I could just come up sometime(s) to work on it. :D

Anyway, so the night was a blast. Decent crowd, met some other cool performers. Saw some friends that I didn't expect to see, one of which couldn't stop kissing my cheek, grabbing my butt and telling me how fabulous I was. lol He was drunk and hes such a funny gay guy.

The highlight of my night came as I was leaving. Our special guest tonight was Miss Gay Texas 2008, Sally Sparkles. Firstly I got an autographed glamour photo of hers (she is gorgeous and so awesome on stage). Secondly as we said goodbye she said something to the effect of "With your [my] looks, you could really blow some of the other girls out of the water." in regards to my potential. !!! I couldn't believe it. It really meant a lot to me. ^_^; It makes me want to work that much harder at learning make-up and dancing/choreography, etc.

~~~

Moving on, now I hope to finish my secret Christmas related cosplay along with FFVIII Irvine in the next 5-6 days for Yule con. Wish me luck. Oiey.

Short bulleted entry cuz I'm about to ptfo.

-Drag show up in Denton tonight.
-Performed "Get Together" by Madonna and "In My Arms" by Kylie Minogue
-Had a blast even though I was nervous and still hate stilettos.
-Apparently people liked my performances. :)
-A few resident local drag queens said I had good features for drag and one went on to accept me as one of her drag daughters. I'm excited to learn from them and start doing shows with them. Ooooh man. :D Say hello to "Tiffany Morgan" (my drag mother is Lucciana Morgan and one of my sisters is Natalie Morgan).
-Apparently I look like a Tiffany. *shrug*
-I'm really tired.


Btw, awesome fabric times and chick-fil-a times happened with Sarah today. It was indeed awesome. And epic. Clearance fabric ftw.

PEACE OUT.

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Sooo thats Helena Bonham Carter, known from Harry Potter (Bellatrix), Sweeny Todd, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Aside from being a wonderful actress, I think she's reaaaallly gorgeous and hot. I think I only need 2 sentences...well 3 now. ^_^;

Okies...soo after thinking about somethings  I have some good news and bad news concerning the aforementioned things.

Lets start bad and end good, shall we?

Bad:
1) Due to my surgery and recovery I don't feel comfortable finishing or wearing Maid Marian til I'm more recovered than I expect to be by Oni. :-\ Sad face. SORRY TAHITI. x.x; So I hope to have it for Ikkicon.
2) With my treatment/dilation schedule as it is (6 times a day til about November 1st) and even when its 4 times a day after that til February, I don't think it'll be wise to go to Ren Faire this fall. It reaaaaaaaally pains me to say that. Seriously. But thinking about it reasonably, theres no way I can manage either of those schedules while staying in a tent all weekend. Its an important part of my recovery and requires available privacy and cleanliness. x.x; Blah. I hate that I missed AnimeFest and now Ren Faire. But it is worth it, I swear...


Okay. Good. Kinda.
It mostly concerns what I've moved to the front of my cosplay list.
1) Etna is moved to Ikki so I can have more time to perfect her and so I cans wears it with Crystal's Rozy. :D
2) For Oni I will be making:
a) Irvine Kinneas (FFVIII)
b) Mitarashi Anko (Naruto)
c) a gun for my Laguna cosplay! 

So I'm excited about those.

Soo all you FFVIII peoples; I hope you can wear them at Oni, but if not don't fret. I know the troubles of scheduling costumes. But if you have the time and are willing, I'd love to have peoples to wear them with. :)

Well. Thats all for now. Hope all is well with you all. Take care.

<3 Angel

Its not thaaaat bad, but still. Annoying.

So tuesday I got my catheder and packing out (which was OH so fun) and my lesson on how to dilate. Its so not fun, sometimes painful and always uncomfortable, not to mention inconveniencing. For the first two months I have to do it 6 times a day as well, which leaves, on average, 2 hours between each 30 minute session. I'll be glad when thats over (October 28th, the thursday before Oni), because 4 times a day (for months 3-6) is *much* more manageable.

Anyway, she said its look good although I'm very swollen and that will slowly go down over the first 6 months. Lovely, huh?

I had a small breakdown last night though. One of my usual over thinking/over worrying spats. My doctor does do things a lot differently then most of the other ones, but I completely trust her and reasoning. But I just started worrying that I wasn't going to be able to handle it or do it right and with dilating being the most important part of getting the most out of my surgery, its just stressful. Bleh, I'll get over it. I have to.

But anyway, recovery is going to be slow and even when I'm back in Texas, I won't be able to go out much as I'm still weak and get tired easily and won't be able to be out long because of the dilating. So what I might be left with is begging you all to come visit me from time to time. :-O Its going to be a hassle, but it'll be worth it and I can't wait til I'm fully recovered and back to my normal strength and all.

So things are going well, or atleast as well as can be expected. Hope you all are doing okay and work or school and whatnot is treating you all well. Take care.

<3 Angel

So I know I said I would call some people and update evening after my surgery. lol So that didn't happen, now did it?

I underestimated how I would feel. I didn't feel like doing anything except for resting while drugged up for the first 5 days. But now I'm back in the hotel in Philly. Rested better than I have in the last week last night and now I'm up, catching up on facebook and myspace messages and livejournal entries. Probably will play some WoW today too.

Anyway, wanted to say that I reaaaaaaaaaally appreciate all the well wishes and messages from you guys. I truly have wonderful friends and you all are what make my life so rich and full of joy. Just wanted to say thanks.

Also, I would love to hear your voices or read your txts. I miss you all. I'm in eastern time zone though along with the fact that I need rest, so I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't do so after 8pm central time. But otherwise, feel free to call if you have some time to talk or just send me a txt. It would mean the world to me. :)

Take care you all and I can't wait to get back.

<3 Angel

So yeah. Dream wise today has been really interesting. I haven't had a lot of memorable, jolting, wierd, and/or vivid dreams in a while so it was kinda startling.

First, this morning... I don't remember a lot of details, but at first I was in this room of this ooold building on the top floor. A friend from high school (one that was not really a close friend, but still more than an acquaintance) was in the room with me. He started trying to physically attack me so I was avoiding him around the room. Eventually we were on the roof and he had a dagger. We were grappling on the corner edge of the roof and it was falling apart. Somehow the roof corner was dangling a bit but didn't fall. At some point he lost his footing and fell off the roof.

This is when the dream changed. Now it was in, what resembled atleast, my parents house and neighborhood. My dad was chasing me around with a gun. It was seriously freaking terrifying. At some point he did shoot at me and 3-5 bullets went through my right hand. That hurt like hell. I kept running from him and he corned me in the basement at some point. But then some unknown man disarmed my "dad" and subdued him. Apparently that wasn't my dad, but some clone/replacement. The rest of the dream dealt with finding my real dad, though it was fairly uneventful.

~~~

Moving on...After shopping with Joy and eating Panda Express for lunch, I laid down on the loveseat in the family room and started to take a nap. At some point I realized Wil (my roommate) was sitting on the couch next to me, but I fell back asleep and started to dream.

I don't remember a lot of the early details of this dream, but I ended up walking through what seemed like an underground shopping mall. At some point I gained roller blades and it faded into a non mall type area. It was like an underground courtyard and I roller bladed up and then down some sets of stairs (not small staircases, but big foyer like ones). I ended up at what appeared to be some underground club/slum areas. There was this club that had "X" in the name. I was directed to a set of double doors. I went inside and my dad was there and someone else (either a friend or someone) along with a bouncer/greeter type person.

It was at this point that I realized this was a dream and looking at the 3 people's faces, it felt like they knew this was a dream and a dream that I did not want to be a part of as they smirked and smiled. I then felt the presence of my actual body in the loveseat. I could barely see and it was very dark/cloudy, but I saw Wil's body over the armrest. I couldn't speak so I was gasping and trying to shout at him. I also couldn't move except for my legs so I was waving my legs around wildly. It took me what seemed like forever to get his attention and he freaked the fuck out. He finally came over to me and I was gasping what sounded like "Wake me up!" and eventually pulled me up and out of the "dream".

I then came to realize that THIS too was a dream. Some other crazy stuff happened involving my cats at my parents house (which actually have all passed away save for two that weren't in the dream). One was freaking out and putting her claws and teeth all over my arms and hands, but it didn't hurt nor did it draw blood or anything. Anyway, I eventually forced myself to wake up from this final dream state.

I sat up in the loveseat (where I laid down to sleep and where I woke up within my dream), looked over at Wil who was sitting where he had been the whole time and within my dream. That whole ordeal made my head feel reaaaally wierd and has left me exhausted. It was totally freaky.

~~~

Anyway...other tidbits of news

-Thanks to Wil's sudden notion of wanting to go to the Church last sunday, we now have dogtags to get us in free. :D
-My band played its first gig on wednesday. Twas fun.
-My surgery is a month from TODAY. :-O I'm excited, nervous and scared all at the same time.
-My sister's wedding (planned by her mom) is suddenly on September 6th in Maine (when both individuals involved live in Houston, Tx). What does this mean? My parents and I don't get to attend it due to it being right after we get back from my surgery meaning I'll still be recovering and they won't be recovered financially. I'm sooooo annoyed with this. I have been dreaming about being in her wedding party since the engagement was announced. :-( I really want to attend the ceremony. Blah.

Anyway, thats all for now.

Latahs,
Angel

P.S. I haven't seen Harry Potter or Bruno yet! So if anyone wants to go see them, I'd love to come! :)

Soo....finally...we have internet at the new house. x.x; Soooo happy.

Anyway, things have been interesting, but mostly good. Will post  more later.

*hugs her router* ^_^

Nine things about myself:
1) I'm moody...but it shows more in my tastes and preferences more than in my treatment of people. It makes me picky even when I'm on random on my own iTunes
2) I used to eat lemons, rines and all. Now I just eat the insides. lol
3) I do have a temper that can flare up but I do my best to control it.
4) I want to learn how to ride and buy a crotchrocket (probably start with a Ninja 250R)
5) I am laid back at heart and more often tend to observe before interacting.
6) I drum on everything. Its just my longing to be behind a drumset.
7) I love pickle juice, pickles, cocktail onions, etc.
8) Though I try to project an image of self confidence, I am still shy/self conscious in areas.
9) I love having fingers run through my hair or having my hair played with. Feels sooo good.

Eight ways to win my heart:
1) Respect for and acceptance of who I am as I am, no buts.
2) A love for getting out and having fun while also knowing when quiet nights in and romance/cuddling are important.
3) Respect and acceptance for my tastes even if you don't particularly hold them. (I try harder and harder to give the same)
4) Cheesecake
5) Be flexible within the relationship (that goes for both of us)
6) Let me feel special/pretty
7) Playing with my hair
8) Letting me lay with my head in your lap. ^.^;

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1) Romance/girls
2) Music
3) SRS/Trans related issues
4) My future/finances
5) Family
6) Friends
7) Things I need to take care of

Six things I do before I go to sleep:
1) Internet (email, etc)
2) Set my alarm
3) Get naked
4) Check twitter
5) Pray
6) Think about what I have to do tomorrow

Five people who mean a lot:
1) Parents
2) Close friends
3) Extended family
4) Other friends
5) Everyone I haven't met yet. :)

Four things I'm wearing right now:
1) Bracelet from my mom
2) Black bra
3) black panties
4) Nothing else... o.o; (my door is closed)

Three songs I listen to often:
(This changes all the time...so we'll keep it recent)
1) Madonna - "Get Together"
2) Jem - "I'm Amazing"
3) Dream Theater - "Misunderstood"

Two things I want to do before I die:
1) Find someone to give all my love to who will give all their love to me
2) Own a motorcycle and/or sky dive (so I cheated...)

One confession:
1) I almost cheated once. I was dating a girl in high school and we had been together only a week or two. It was a party at my house the night before homecoming. A girl I had been hanging out with recently who I really clicked with was there and it ended up being her, another girl and another guy, both of whom fell asleep on the otherside of the basement. The girl and I laid together and she started touching me but I couldn't bring myself to allow anything else and had her stop.

So I had my consultation with my surgeon today. Talked over a lot of questions and all; what I need to take care of between now and the surgery, the surgery process, health history, sexual history, etc etc.

Its between 2 days due to pre-surgery check up concerns, but I have been assured that one of those 2 days is mine and that they will not schedule anyone else and notify me in the next 2 days.

Soooo without further ado...

My SRS (Sexual Reassignment Surgery) will be on August 17th or 18th.
Followed by 6 weeks of doing nothing. lol

Anyway, really excited!! ^__^

( Just a to do list for myself )

EDIT: August 18th has been confirmed! WOOOO!

So life has been pretty decent recently.

-Joy's b-day party was a blast.
-Keep meeting cool new peoples.
-Met 2 different girls who have bands who need drummers through non music-related sources.
-The one class I'm worried about is making the non cumulative final optional in that it will replace your lowest test grade. Wooooot.
-Just had a phone interview with Wells Fargo for the phone banking position that Jess, CJ and Hannah all have.
-Have my phone consultation with my SRS surgeon on May 12th and will most likely be looking at a November or December surgery date.
-Umm graduation is in like 2 weeks and I should be good grade wise granted I study my butt off and do well on that optional final to make sure I pull my grade up higher than it needs to be.

So yeah. Life is good. ^_^

<3 Angel

So I will attempt to recount some of my interesting dream from this morning though I know some parts have started to fade away already.

~~~

So I was talking to a friend about how he haggled down prices in an antique store using persistence and stories.

It then fades to myself doing the same thing but we get interrupted. These strange people dressed in dark clothing come in, chase him away and apparently kill him. I kinda just idle myself in the back of the store in some sort of break room, hoping they don't come for me.

Well they do. But they don't seem to mind and I walk out with them. The fashion of their clothing varies but is all dark in nature. Many of them have slews of piercings. One girl in particular has clusters of piercings near her cheeks, with sword like ornaments coming out of her skin in places. Mostly clustered on one side of the face, the other one fairly devoid. There was another girl with similar piercings but a little less populated then the other. She was also wearing many rings, bracelets and what not. The first girl had short reddish hair, the second had blondish/brown with black streaks a little past her shoulder but up in a ponytail. The redhead had black tight pants with a mesh sleeveless top over a tank top. The blondish/brown haired one had a light flowy open front sleevelss shirt over a black tube top and a flowy long black skirt with black leggings.

Anyway, we walk out of the area of the shop we were in but suddenly its in this mall exit sort of area. We're walking to an escalator as we are on the second floor. I'm locked arms and hands with the second girl (blondish brown hair) and we're happy apparently. Either it was an instant attraction or this is signifying a passing of time.

Anyway, we walk down the escalator and its obvious that all these people have some sort of dark power(s) and I do too. We're half walking half floating towards the exit and theres this head there thats probably an entity of the organization we belong to and she says "Yesss, turn your love into hate and power and do our bidding." We float out the door and turn to each other and I either whisper this in her ear or its telepathic..."I don't want to become like that...lets only use our love as fuel for power when we really need to..."...and we both knew we were fairly strong anyway. She nods and smiles back at me, kissing me on the cheek and then on the lips.

Some time passes and it turns from morning to overcast evening. We're near this either abandoned, old or just wierd church with interesting and large architecture. Apparently there is going to be a battle here tonight but what about and with who has faded from my mind already (in rememberance of my dream). But apparently we are still very against using our love fuel for power and one of the other dark people thinks we're going to get killed. He says something along the lines of "I know they're both one of us and all, but their love and affection makes me sick..." half jokingly, half not. Now there was no foreboding feeling of impendent doom, just his comment. The last thing after that that I do remember was my girl and I smirking. No clue what happened after that...

~~~


But anyway. It was an awesome and vivid dream. Really cool.

So sometimes I like the brief (or not so brief) night summarizing posts. So here we go.

Met up with my friend Violette at SushiZushi in Dallas. Had some rockin miso soup, a sushi sampler combo and some salmon musubi. The musubi was interesting but tasty.

Then we had some time to kill so we headed over to the gayborhood since we were so close. We made it with 5 minutes of cruising left at JRs and we both took the chance to have cherry vodka sours while observing interesting music videos to the music being played. Yum yum.

Then we hit up Sue Ellens and got another round of cherry vodka sour/shirley temple and observed people dancing to various things from Cupid's Shuffle to Lady Gaga as well as this girl guitarist playing. We finished off 2 mimosas (YEAH, gay bars carry champagne! SO HAPPY!) and headed over to the main event.

The Lollie Bombs Burlesque (they performed at AllCon) were performing at the Pocket Sandwich Theatre in Dallas tonight. It was a neat venue; in the corner of a shopping center, you walk in, around a corner and down into this lower area with a stage on one wall and tiered table seating eminating from that focal point. There were lots of random pictures all over the walls. It had a cool atmosphere. So we were on stage left in the second row of tables (still only like 8 feet from the stage) with a great view. They all performed amazingly as usual. Some of the acts were the same from AllCon but there were some new ones. I personally love the cop/burglar one with Miss Malicious and Trixi Toxic. Out of the new ones they had Trixi Toxic dressed as Jill Valentine from Resident Evil doing some sexy stripping and zombie shooting. As well as Scarlet Switches doing a rendition of "When you're good to mama" from Chicago. :D Sooo awesome. I love watching those girls.

They also did a few games here and there. One where a guy gets to "pin the pasties on the lollie". So they blindfolded him and then put a bra on another guy and had the first guy blindly put the pasties on the "lollie" before unveiling the true nature of his target. Was fairly funny.

Anyway, so I briefly met the lollie bombs at All-Con after their show (and randomly ran into Miss Malicious at the bar too). And yeah I friended them on myspace and all. Anyway, I was talking to Violette after they had gone off stage and all of a sudden I look to my left and there is Miss Malicious coming to give me a hug saying "Hey sweetie!". I didn't think she'd remember me and all. :D It was really cool of her to come over and say hi. As well, Scarlet Switches remembered me from myspace and also remembered seeing my bulletin about the DSO Final Fantasy concert and asked me about it. Said she'd let me know if she ended up going since she was interested. But anyway, I was happy that they remembered me and took the time to say hi and talk a bit. <3 Lollie Bombs.

Anyway, picked up a shirt of theirs. They didn't have the one I wanted in a small, but ehh its okay. It was a light pink and had the lollie bombs logo on the bottom right of the front side but not solidly printed, it had some fading/crumbling effect to it and was really neat looking. But I have a fun camo green one with the logo and text on it.

Was a damn fun night. :D

Today is the National Day of Silence.

So many people have been affected by GLBT related discrimination, whether identified or not. We have been silenced with no good reason for too long.

Just recently a young boy just over the age of 10 took his own life after being bullied and being a victim of GLBT related discrimination. The boy himself did not identify as GLBT, but was victimized none the less. Discrimination affects us all. The boy would have turned 12 (I believe) on the Day of Silence. Let us all act to end such atrocious happenings.

Today is a day of echoing this silence. Let us act to end the silencing; let us act to end the ignorance and GLBT discrimination in our world today.

So do your best today to be silent; show them the voices that they aren't hearing. Show your support for equity and diversity here and everywhere.

http://www.dayofsilence.org

Just got back from Anime Matsuri. It was...interesting. Lots of good times and new people and only a little drama here and there.

Some highlights:
-Improv show on friday night was HILARIOUS...like a boss.
-Gren's bf, Jim, is as goofy as she is and can dance like no other. Crazy shit.
-Cheesecake Factory was freaking delicious. Mmmm...
-Finally wore Sophitia and got some pics by Mike Boike and SP. Yaaay.
-Congrats to Stephanie (AshuraCastle) and JennyBunny, Beauty, and Cat-chan on their awards!
-Shout outs to: all the peoples in room 1428, Sarah, Nicole, Blu, Stephanie, Beauty, Jenny, Cat-chan, Kevin, Cat, Candice, Nikki, Mike, Gren, Jim, Drew, Kayla, Shortie, Matt, Courtney, Jesse, Lauren, Tracie, Vanessa, Diana, Vic, Miyu/Lauren, Gary, Carrie, Selena, Kyle, Kelly, Mel, Shawn, Shane, Crystal, Mike Boike, Chelsea, Lily, MandaPanda, Whitney, SkyPirate, Abby, Adam, and everyone else who enjoyed some fun times at the con.
-And the $80 I spent in the dealer's room on...





FFT's Agrias and Ovelia, Dissidia's Light Warrior, Disgaea 2's Thief, and Escaflowne's Eriya/Naria guymelefs. Wooooot.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a great weekend. Take care and Happy Easter!

Angel

Soooo now that I have a blackberry, I've been doing everything on it. lol I didn't think I'd become like that, but its so convenient and fun...and helps procrastination.

Soooo. Anyone who has twitter should give me theirs and add me. :D

http://www.twitter.com/LadySaea